I am never going to him. All that I can do is be the best version of myself, and strive each day to be a better person then I was yesterday. But I need to stop comparing myself and my life to you. And I need people to stop telling me in a million different ways how I should be more like him. Because all it does is give me more insecurity then ever. It hurts. Because I want to be the best person I can be. But how can I do that and not feel inadequate? I shouldn’t have to try so hard. I shouldn’t have to put on a mask, or pretend like I’m someone else. And I shouldn’t have to feel like just being me isn’t as good.